Friday 28 September 2012

Blessing In Disguise - Part 1

Pernah dengar orang kata mesti ada hikmah di sebalik apa yang terjadi (always referred to 'bad' things that had happened to us) atau mengikut pepatah omputeh, diorng biasa cakap blessing in disguise when  unwanted or unpleasant thing happened to someone. Indeed it is very true in my personal opinion.

Kalau kita betul2 percaya dan yakin dengan sifat Allah yang biasa sangat2 kita dengar yakni Ar- Rahman dan Ar-Rahim, mesti kita jugak yakin yang apa2 jer yang terjadi kat kita or as a matter of fact kat mana2 orang sekali pun  terutama orang2 yang beriman adalah yang terbaik untuk kita. Sebabnya Allah Maha Pemurah lagi  Maha Mengasihani kan..

Me myself was among those who are always whining, blaming others and easily give up when faced with ujian, tak kira lah ujian besar ke kecik. But last year I had a very eye opening experience. It was in fact the biggest test in my life.

Al kisahnya bermula akhir Ramadhan tahun lepas. Adik Hafiz batuk and selsema sehari sebelum kami balik kampung untuk sambut Aidil Fitri. We had a visit to a pediatrician and take necessary medicine including antiiotic in view of long journey next day to Machang.

Even with the medication, Adik Hafiz did not get better. Malam Raya ketiga Adik Hafiz demam panas. Kami bawak dia jumpa doktor lagi skali kat klinik kat Machang, this time general physician. Tapi sebab doktor tu dah nak tutup klinik, the diagnostic process was very brief. Balik rumah, Adik Hafiz minum ubat and Alhamdulillah suhu badan dia turun dan boleh tido that night.

Hari raya ketiga, we went to couple of houses untuk beraya. Adik Hafiz tak aktif macam biasa, either he sleep or dia merengek and nak dukung je tapi as long as dia tak demam I thought he was OK. Tapi sangkaan tu meleset sama sekali. Menjelang malam Adik Hafiz demam lagi dan suhu dia sgt tinggi. We decided to balik Kuantan early next day  to seek medical treatment for him as there are no specialist in Machang and nak pergi  Kota Bharu is like impossile masa raya sebab jalan confirm jam teruk.

So lepas subuh raya ke empat we headed back to Kuantan. Badan Adik Hafiz still sgt panas. He slept all the way sambil menyusu. Since pagi-pagi tak banyak sangat kereta and Alhamdulillah masa tu tak hujan, we manage to reach Kuantan in 3 hours time.Sampai je Kuantan kami terus ke KMC jumpa Pediatrician kat situ. Doktor dah tahu bila dengar cara Adik Hafiz merengek tu yang his condition was not good. Upon checking, doktor terus kata 'Ni kena warded ni' sebab his fever was very high and dia punya lung was already infected.

Doctor told us to go for nebulizer and the X-ray. Masa amek neb adik hafiz meronta-ronta while crying taknak benda tu. but towards the end the just cried silently sambil mata terkebil-kebil tengok ibu. Lepas habis neb suddenly he turned blue.Allahu Akbar, saya sangat risau dan mintak nurse panggil doktor.The doctor came, checked on him and told us that O2 level Adik Hafiz dah menurun, dia tak boleh bernafas sendiri dan kena masuk ICU and need ventilator to help him breath. MasyaAllah, masa tu Allah je yang tahu perasaan saya ngan husband. Doctor tried to do everything he can to help Adik Hafiz to get some O2. It was a very heart wrenching moment as we could not do anything other than hoping he will survive.

Alhamdulillah, in about half an hour after Dr Yeo called HTAA about the case, we managed to get a bed in ICU. So, saya ngan Adik Hafiz was brought to HTAA in KMC's ambulance as Adik hafiz was on O2 support. I felt like it was the longest journey even though tak sampai 10 minit pun dalam ambulans tu. Mana tidaknya, seeing my baby so weak, mata hitam dia dah ternaik ke atas, almost lifeless. But I kept talking to him ask him to hang on..huhu..

When we arrived at children's ICU ward, 4 doctors attended to him as his was already very very critical. I kept on praying to Allah and continuously recite doa Nabi Yunus to seek for Allah's mercy.Despite what the ICU doctor said, deep down in my heart I believe Adik hafiz will gonna be just fine and I believe that anything is possible dengan kekuasan Allah.

'Anak puan sangat sangat tenat, harapan untuk dia pulih 50:50. kemungkinan perkembangan mental dia akan terjejas sebab mengalami kekurangan oksigen yang teruk.Sekarang keadaan dia stabil tapi masih kritikal. Keadaan dia boleh jadi makin teruk atau makin baik dalam masa 48 jam' some of the doctor's words that I remembered. Boleh bayangkan tak macam mana perasaan kami suami isteri masa tu? My husband felt on his knees, crying. But I managed to find the strength not to shed any tears in front of the doctor. Bukan nak jaga macho but I believed that those words are not final. It was just based on her medical knowledge and Adik Hafiz's condition at that time. Anyway, thanks to Kak Sofia, one of the ICU patient's mother yang dah bagi gambaran what the doctor gonna say bila keluar dari bilik anak kita. So I was kind of mentally prepared.

Ok, I guess sampai sini dulu sharing on Part 1. Stay tuned for Part 2 as I will share on the priceless experience in the ICU.
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Sunday 16 September 2012

Dedicated to..

Billions all of people blog nowadays with all sorts of stories and things to share with countless intents and agendas. Blogging now has evolved from just served as 'My Dear Dairy' to motivational and inspiring stories sharing, knowledge and skills broadcasting and also platform to trigger useful discussion on subject related to economics, religion, politics, medical practice, health, education and the list goes on and on.

Well, that reminds me of my original intent of entering the blogger community.  As the blog's name suggest, these writings is basically dedicated to my beloved babies, Muhammad Amirul Hakim and Muhammad Amirul Hafiz. I wish to capture my personal experience fused with other extraordinary beings which I came across in my life hoping that it will be of benefit to them and perhaps their younger brothers and sisters (kalau ada rezeki :D ), InsyaAllah. It will be a part and parcel of raising up my imam mudas :) Semoga perkongsian ini bermanfaat untuk anak2 ibu dan sesapa sahaja yang relevant.
My Imam Muda.. InsyaAllah (gambar thn lepas)
Abg Hakim

Adik Hafiz

Bercakap tentang 'intentions' - niat, teringat Hadith Nabi saw. Hadith Satu dalam himpunan Hadith 40 Imam Nawawi rahimahullah yang berbunyi:

ﻋﻦ أﻣِﻴْﺮِ اﻟﻤُﺆْﻣِﻨِﻴْﻦَ أﺑِﻲْ ﺡَﻔْﺺٍ ﻋُﻤَﺮَ ﺑْﻦِ اﻟﺨَﻄﱠﺎب رَﺿِﻲَ اﷲُ ﻋَﻨْﻪُ ﻗَﺎلَ: ﺳَﻤِﻌْﺖُ رَﺳُﻮلَ اﷲِ
ﺻﻠﻰ اﷲ ﻋﻠﻴﻪ وﺳﻠﻢ یَﻘُﻮلُ: (( إِﻧﱠﻤَﺎ اﻷَﻋْﻤَﺎلُ ﺑِﺎﻟﻨﱢﻴﱠﺎتِ وَإِﻧﱠﻤَﺎ ﻟِﻜُﻞﱢ اﻣْﺮِئٍ ﻣَﺎ ﻧَﻮَى ﻓَﻤَﻦْ آَﺎﻧَﺖْ
هـِﺠْﺮَﺗُﻪُ إِﻟﻰَ اﷲِ وَرَﺳُﻮﻟِﻪِ ﻓَﻬِﺠْﺮَﺗُﻪُ إﻟﻰ اﷲِ ورَﺳُﻮﻟِﻪِ وَﻣَﻦْ آَﺎﻧَﺖْ  هِﺠْﺮَﺗُﻪُ ﻟِﺪُﻧْﻴَﺎ یُﺼِﻴْﺒُﻬَﺎ أَوِ اﻣْﺮَأَةٍ
یَﻨْﻜِﺤُﻬَﺎ ﻓَﻬِﺠْﺮَﺗُﻪُ إِﻟَﻰ ﻣَﺎ هَﺎﺟَﺮَ إِﻟَﻴْﻪِ)) . رواﻩ إﻣﺎﻣﺎ اﻟﺤﺪﺛﻴﻦ أﺑﻮ ﻋﺒﺪ اﷲ ﻣﺤﻤﺪ ﺑﻦ إﺳﻤﺎﻋﻴﻞ ﺑﻦ
إﺑﺮاهﻴﻢ ﺑﻦ اﻟﻤﻐﻴﺮة ﺑﻦ ﺑﺮدزیﺔ اﻟﺒﺨﺎري، وأﺑﻮ اﻟﺤﺴﻴﻦ ﻣﺴﻠﻢ ﺑﻦ اﻟﺤﺠﺎج ﺑﻦ ﻣﺴﻠﻢ اﻟﻘﺸﻴﺮي
اﻟﻨﻴﺴﺎﺑﻮري ﻓﻲ ﺻﺤﻴﺤﻴﻬﻤﺎ اﻟﻠﺬیﻦ ﻣﻦ أﺻﺢ اﻟﻜﺘﺐ اﻟﻤﺼﻨﻔﺔ.
Daripada Amirul Mukminin Abu Hafsin 'Umar ibn al-Katthab r.a. beliau berkata: Aku mendengar 
Rasulullah SAW bersabda: 
Bahawa sesungguhnya setiap amalan itu bergantung kepada niat, dan bahawa sesungguhnya bagi setiap 
orang apa yang dia niatkan. Barangsiapa yang hijrahnya menuju kepada Allah dan RasulNya, maka 
hijrahnya kepada Allah dan RasulNya. Barangsiapa yang hijrahnya kerana dunia yang dia mahu 
mencari habuannya, atau kerana seorang perempuan yang dia mahu kahwininya, maka hijrahnya ke 
arah perkara yang ditujuinya itu.

Hadith ni menegaskan pada kita bahawa what ever we do kena ada niat kerana ganjaran dan manafaat dari usaha dan perbuatan kita bergantung kepada niat kita. Contoh, kita pergi kerja hari2, niatkan kerja itu sebagai ibadah, sebagai kenderaan utk meraih kemenangan yang hakiki di akhirat dgn mendapat redha Allah. dan sebaik-baiknya niat itu dilafazkan or dilintaskan di dalam hati every time nak gi kerja.

Once kita niatkan kerana Allah, dan mulakan dengan basmallah, insyaAllah tujuan kita akan jelas, kerja kita terarah dan terpandu ke arah objective yang kita set dgn cara-cara yang menepati nilai-nilai Islam. huhu.. ni peringatan yang penting utk diri sendiri yang asyik merungut jer bila gi kerje.. yang rasa cam keje tu tak bwk pape makna to myself..huhu..ni petanda niat tak kena ni.. or takde niat langsung.. just go with the flow..

Niat yang betul akan menjaga action kita supaya tak tersasar dan 'ter'buat maksiat dalam melaksanakan satu-satu kerja. For example, time kerje, kita gunakan masa dan alatan pejabat dgn penuh integriti, time buat kek tempahan customer, kita buat sepenuh hati dgn bahan2 yang lengkap dan quality yang bgs.. bukan buat asal siap, janji duit masuk.. huhu..

Soal niat ni soal hati. Soal hati mmg susah nak control dan keep it consistent sebab kita tahu hati manusia ni sentiasa berbolak balik dan imam jugak ada pasang surutnya kan.. so nak nak tak.. need to have constant reminder samaada dari diri sendiri - kira sessi muhasabah or selalu dengar tazkirah supaya kita sentiasa ada kesedaran.

By the way, here's nice song about Hadith 1 from Xifu and Al-Gebra. Happy listening!! :)



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Thursday 6 September 2012

Riang Ria Hari Raya - Eidul Fitri 1433H


Rasanya tak terlambat lagi utk saya ucapkan Selamat Hari Raya!! Maaf Zahir Batin. Taqabbalallahu minna wa minkum. :)

Despite hubby's turn to standby during 1st week raya (meaning no balik kampung for us 1st week Syawal) we had a great raya celebration. It was a blast as we got the chance to beraya with both families during our raya leave. Lambat pun takpe...

Dan bila tengok anak-anak sehat dan ceria di Hari Raya, syukur Alhamdulillah. Kita pun dapat layan mood Raya to the max..hehe.. :)
Family photo on 1st Syawal

Before this I took for granted the health condition of myself and my family members during festive season. Tak pernah rasa syukur dengan nikmat sihat yang Allah kurnia bila menyambut Raya. But after two consecutive years celebrating Raya with poor health condition of my sons (gilir-gilir adik and abang)  and me myself was not in the pinkest of health during beginning of Syawal this year, I am really thankful for the good health, Alhamdulillah.

Even my grandma yang dah 70 lebih pun sihat siap boleh masakkan dinner utk kitorng sumer and kait buah rambutan untuk bagi kami bawa balik.She's a superwoman! I really admire you, nenek.
Nenda tersayang

Melihat anak-anak ceria dan dapat menziarahi dan meraikan sanak saudara dan sahabat-sahabat sempena Aidil Fitri is really PRICELESS.
Ceria dua beradik main Talking Ginger kat telefon Cik Lang

Kesihatan yang baik bukan datang bergolek. Kita kena usaha dengan menjaga kebersihan diri, persekitaran (terutama rumah) dan jaga pemakanan kita. For me apart from balanced diet and watching our food intake day in and day out, supplement is also very important.This is to compensate the lack of essential nutrients from daily food consumption and also to boost our immune system for optimum health.

Syawal tahun ni jugak lebih bermakna as we got the chance to beraya with both families, mine and hubby's.
Happy faces of my big family (without angah's family)
Angah's family  
Syawal with my in laws



Even though tak sempat bergambar ngan angah anak beranak kat rumah umi, angah sempat singgah beraya kat my house on the way from KT to KL. All in all our raya celebration was a blast this year :)

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Saturday 1 September 2012

Getting started :)

Alhamdulillah.. after soooo long of thinking of having my own blog, hari ni finally i managed to create one. hehe..Congratulation Hanun!! ahaqs.. hope it will be a start of good things dan semoga blog ni memberi manfaat to me, my family and those who happen to read my future entries..Amin,, :)
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